About Morgan - The Spiritual Power

Why do I do this work? How did I know I was psychic?

What does it all mean? 

This is my story. 

“Do you know when you're trying to fall asleep and you can't because of all the voices? What do you do to fall asleep?” I distinctly remember asking my father (a Naval Academy graduate, engineer, practical, steady, logical person) this question as a child. We were standing in the kitchen and he just looked at me and said, “Nope!”

I wasn't offended by my father at all. He was a loving person. I was just annoyed that he was “acting like he didn't know.” I was so comfortable with what I was experiencing that I thought it was as normal as brushing my teeth.

From a very young age I had a really deep sense of a spiritual presence. It was a knowing, like the one that you, reader, also get when you have a feeling someone's going to call you and then you look down, and your silent phone is ringing with their name on it.

I just knew, early on, that there is so much more to this life than what meets the human eye.

The spiritual life felt more real to me than the human one.

By the time I reached my teenage years, I had brushed these realities of mine aside. They were still present, but they were muted or so quiet that I could only hear them in my most quiet moments, like a whisper in the back of a room. The distance I experience from them was painful, but at this time I was not conscious of this being the reason for some of my pain.

I was blessed to live a priveleged life. I was sent to excellent schools and had more than enough of everything I needed in life, but I had serious mental health challenges. I struggled with heavy depression, anxiety, an eating disorder, and unbeknownst to me, until my early 20s, I was dealing with PTSD as a result of childhood sexual abuse that I wouldn’t remember until years later.

As years passed, all of these challenges culminated into me being regularly suicidal in my early 20s while living on my own in LA. To be honest, I don't even like talking about that part of my story anymore because it feels so inaccurate to my truth. But the disconnection and malalignment to my Highest Good gave way for the liar in my brain to play tricks on me. In order to survive the urges of self harm that I would experience, I would make deals with myself.

I’d say “okay, you can do anything you want as long as you don't hurt yourself. You can get on a flight to China. You can escape your life, but don't hurt yourself.”

Around that same time, I “serendipitously” met someone named Siridev. But she was embarking on her own path as a spiritual coach, guide, teacher, healer. (It's always hard to find the right words to explain what it is that we do.) I would realize later that I was one of her first students. She was on her own path and she was incredibly powerful. I had reached out to her expressing interest in working with her, but I wasn't hearing back. Shortly thereafter, I met my darkest moment. I was moving closer towards an acceptance that my best option was to actually act on all these dark thoughts. But Thank God, I bargained with myself one more time saying, “okay, you can act on it, but not until you've called her one more time.” I called her.

She answered the phone, and said, “Now, you're ready.”

We met up in a park in Los Angeles near my home. I still vividly remember sitting at a picnic table holding hands while we prayed. She worked with me for free for two years straight.

Some of the moments of growth were incredibly painful, very difficult, and excruciatingly uncomfortable. But something was working, and I reached a point of great joy and happiness in my life. I wasn't suddenly perfect 24/7, but I was alive. She changed my life through various spiritual teachings, and it's no stretch to argue that she saved it.

For the first time as a young adult, I was healthy, had a community of friends, a job I loved that actually paid my rent, and I was continuing to grow. I had passions again.

I remember thinking, “if I can do for someone else what she did for me, my life will be a success.”

That calling, that sentiment of paying forward what has been given to me has been a huge driving force in my spiritual life and in my life in general. It's not beyond me how blessed I've been. But still at this point in my life, I hadn't considered myself to be psychic or an intuitive. I knew I had access to a vast spiritual loving power, but I didn't think I could work with others in the capacity that she was working. Meanwhile, and even though I was living this newly realized spiritual life, the impacts of childhood sexual abuse were increasingly coming to the surface.

One of the spiritual practices that my teacher taught me was that we create everything in our lives. Therefore, on some level, I must have chosen my childhood sexual abuse. Naturally, my initial response to this idea was a very clear, “fuck you.” (This is a controversial belief and not one I impose on others.) I bargained with myself a little bit again. I thought, “I trust this person. She's been right about everything else. She's led me in the right direction. My life is improving for the better, not worse. Why don't I just play this mental game? What if I did choose this? Why would I have chosen it?”

I prayed and listened for intuitive answers. I did this many times over many years. Every single time I did this, I heard:

“Because I knew I would get through it and I could use my experience to help others.”

For 33 years, I struggled with my sexuality. Simple innocent pleasures, like my first kiss, led me into terrified darkness at my friend's house after our eighth grade dance. I had no idea why others thought it was fun. Why didn’t they also feel so anxious that they couldn’t breath and wake up from bad dreams? I kept this to myself. I didn’t want to be the even more odd one out.

All the way through my early 30s, I couldn't find much pleasure in my sexual experiences - at least not without alcohol, or drugs, or a partner who was clearly bad for me. I never had an orgasm alone or with others. I thought I was broken.

In late 2019, early 2020, I started to (re)experiencing psychic phenomena during Reiki sessions. I was seeing a healer on a weekly basis and she suggested that I work with her psychic teacher. Thrilled, grateful, and dumbstruck by these experiences, I jumped onboard. I had a psychic reading from her teacher that was so moving and so powerful I signed up immediately. We had our first “class” on a Thursday and that following Monday, my colleagues and I packed up our bags for “three weeks of work from home” due to COVID. The rest of that story is ongoing history. The point is, all of a sudden I had plenty of time to focus on psychic spiritual healing and learning how to best work with clients. I was elated! I was finally making real steps towards becoming the person who could pay forward what had been given to me by Siridev a decade prior.

However, I remained very disconnected from my sexual self and carried a lot of shame. I had put off dealing with this due to a lot of frustration and negative experiences in partnerships and therapy alike. Still, I knew I couldn't be the impactful spiritual teacher I wanted to be if an entire part of me was shut down, especially the powerful sexual part. On some level, I knew how very powerful my sexual self was/is, and the lack of access I had to her was a great painpoint to me. I carried a lot of grief. One day I was crying about it, and a close friend of mine said, “hey, I just saw this Netflix episode, The Goop Lab with Gwyneth Paltrow, The Pleasure is Ours. Why don't you check it out?”

The moment I saw Betty Dodson and Carlin Ross, I thought “oh my God, these people are amazing. I have to do this!” I couldn’t Google them fast enough. Lo and behold, they were based in New York City where I live. They had just stopped in-person workshops because of COVID, but Carlin had just started offering virtual sessions.

I signed up for the 1:1 virtual workshop. I did all four sessions, and on one of them I had my first full body, sweaty, amazing, delicious orgasm(!) on a Zoom call… with Carlin… in my own bed, by myself.

The door of sexual completion and freedom had swung open in an incredibly empowering way.

It continued to have profoundly positive ripple effects in all areas of my life. I share more about this here under ‘My Highest Sexual Self.’

As I embarked on a new pleasure journey, I continued to study the various healing modalities that were healing me. I became certified in Reiki (Master Level III), and Bodysex® Coaching, and started to provide intuitive services such as psychic readings, manifestation and abundance coaching, mediumship sessions, and more. My toolkit continues to expand, and as I continue to study with teachers from all modalities, I continue to see one thing, more and more clearly:

The sexual and spiritual are deeply, intimately tied, at least for women, at least for me.

I'm especially intrigued and inspired by two realities in particular:

1) The cervix is a supreme storehouse of memory, energy, emotion, and creative life force power.

2) The clitoris is an organ entirely devoted to pleasure with vast, and profound healing capabilities.

I experientially learned this about the cervix when I would go to gynecological appointments to get a Pap test. The contact with my cervix would trigger PTSD. I quickly learned that this is very common for women whether or not they had physical trauma in their current lifetime stories. What is it about this energetic area, in, on, near, and around the cervix? I was shocked to learn that medical schools do not address this.

I was further shocked to realize that they don’t even talk much about the clitoris. An entire organ(!) left out of vital research. An organ that promotes healing, self-love, connection with others, confidence, security, and assists with pregnancy and childbirth.

It’s hard to not draw a connection between the above and the fact that we live in a world in which all things “feminine” such as intuition, psychic abilities and holistic healing practices are considered to be “silly, woo-woo,” “witchcraft” or “for weak people, crazy people, or hippies.”

Let’s be clear: Everyone has intuition. Intuition and psychic abilities are the same thing. Holistic healing practices are as ancient and normal as human life itself. And witchcraft… well "witch” is just a word for “powerful woman.”

I believe that - because these “feminine” ideals are globally rejected, discounted, and denied - we are also rejecting, discounting, and denying the effects of sexual violence, trauma, and female oppression. Western medicine and the justice system (or lack thereof) would have us see the cause and effects as mechanic. A+B=C. “They hurt you. You bruised. Get over it.” “It happened a long time ago. Why aren’t you over it?” Because:

The effects of sexual violence, trauma and oppression in all of its forms, are holistic.

They involve the spiritual, as well as the physical, mental, and emotional.

This is why rape, for example, is such an effective weapon of war, alongside guns and bombs. One feminist writer wrote, “rape is surviving murder.” Nothing has ever felt more accurate.

Childhood sexual abuse and violence against women disconnects us from our very bodies and livelihoods. Because living in fear of it disconnects us from our self -expression and freedoms. Because we also carry our ancestors and family wounds. Even though we get to choose joy and pleasure and thriving, not a single woman on planet Earth is escaping the burden of this reality.

The main purpose of my work and my story culminates in this: Women are powerful beyond measure.

The female experience supports this spiritually as well as physically and mentally. When women reclaim their spirituality and their sexulaity, they reclaim their lives. My goal is to support women in reintegrating the parts of us that have felt disconnected, cut off, inlcuding each other. I aim to bring the holistic experience of the divine feminine of safety, security, self -love, self -respect into our everyday lives through the spiritual power that exists within our highest sexual selves.

I opened the Morgan Borchardt Sisterhood in 2021 under the name MB Intuitive Healing.

I utilize Reiki energy healing, Bodysex® coaching, intuitive readings, mediumship, manifestation and abundance coaching, and more, to commit myself to serving womankind.

I love you sister. Thank you so much for joining me.

Morgan Borchardt